good bye

I can see the pain living in your eyes

And I know how hard you try

You deserve to have so much more

I can feel your heart and I sympathize

And I'll never criticize all you've ever meant to my life


(Chorus)

I don't want to let you down

I don't want to lead you on

I don't want to hold you back

From where you might belong

You would never ask me why

My heart is so disguised

I just can't live a lie anymore

I would rather hurt myself

Than to ever make you cry

There's nothing left to say but good-bye

You deserve the chance at the kind of love

I'm not sure I'm worthy of

Losing you is painful to me



(Chorus) You would never ask me why

My heart is so disguised

I just can't live a lie anymore

I would rather hurt myself

Than to ever make you cry

There's nothing left to try

Though it's gonna hurt us both

There's no other way than to say good-bye

kembali ke duniaku

rasanya lama sekali aku tak menulis. tanganku terasa sangat kaku, pikiranku pun terasa seperti tak lagi mau untuk berkarya. terkadang aku iri melihat teman-temanku yang begitu lancar berceloteh dengan berbagai kisah mereka. berbagai luapan mereka tersaji secara indah, terangkum dengan rapi membuat aku berdecak kagum memahami kisah-kisah yang mereka tulis. aku ingin pulang,aku ingin kembali menulis.. semoga aku bisa..

some times when we touch

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I’d rather hurt you honestly
than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do
I’m only just beginning
To see the real you

(Chorus)
And sometimes when we touch
The honesty’s too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you ’til I die
‘Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you ’til the fear in me subsides
Romance and all its strategies
Leaves me battling with my pride
But for all the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I’m just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize-fighter
Still trapped within my youth
(Chorus)
At times I’d like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I’d like to break through
And hold you endlessly
At times I understand you
And I know how hard you try
I’ve watched while love commands you
And I’ve watched love pass you by
At times I think we’re drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
And then the passion flares again
(Chorus)

untuk senjaku

teruntuk senjaku sayang..
terima kasih karena kau telah begitu banyak memberiku pelajaran hidup.tentang cinta kasih,kasih sayang,kesabaran serta keikhlasan menjalani hidup.kau akan menjadi sesuatu yang akan selalu ku tunggu.selalu kurindukan meski kadang senjaku terasa muram.

bahagia

Bahagia

Aku bahagia bisa mengenalnya.....
Tapi....aku akan lebih bahagia kalo aku tidak pernah mengenalnya.....
Seandainya hari itu tak pernah ada........
Semua masih akan tetap sama........seperti dulu........
                                                                               
                                                                             " anggi gayatri "

prolog

mungkin sekarang dia sedang sendiri.
merenung,bernostalgia dengan hari-hari yang telah dia lalui.
meraba dinding waktu dengan otak kecilnya
dan mencoba meraba setiap inci kenangan yang di lewatinya.

mungkin dia sedih..
mungkin dia bosan..
mungkin saat ini dia sedang menangis..
atau mungkin justru sebaliknya,dia bahagia dengan kesendiriannya.

aku terdiam.
mataku nanar.
terpaku menatap rintik hujan yang jatuh di ujung dedaunan.
bias pucat wajah itu seolah ikut mengalir,
memberi warna langit seperti lembayung.
menggantung..

sejenakku sadar harapku mulai sirna
mengguncang sisi jiwaku
hasrat pun meronta merebak dalam tanya
adilkah dunia bawa
ku melangkah..

tatap cermin diri
cari jawab akan tanya
gelap hampa tiada warna
sudah hapus saja
bila raga lelah tuk mencari
adilkah dunia bawa
ku melangkah..